Control Freak

April 23, 2008

I am having a hard time not wanting to be in control of the adoption process.It is amazing the days that I obsess about it I don't get anything done!! I just obsess! I guess I am scared that this adoption is too good to be true and it is not going to happen. I think I have always felt like the more I control things I can make sure it happens. When I look back over my life I realize the best things that have happened to me were out of my control.I guess this just shows my lack of trust in God. I am going to try to not think I can in any way control the outcome to getting Kati and just trust he loves her more than we do.
The homestudy is over and we were asked questions about our childhoods, parents, kids. One of the scariest questions was about disipline. Gray was a biter last year . The cure to that was tobasco sauce!!!!!!!!!! Gray even has a t-shirt with hot sauce on it. We confessed to putting hotsauce in his mouth and I am glad the social worker did not write that in the report. The homestudy is written so now we wait for immigration form!!edit