August 31, 2008

I am so sick of waiting.I am so ready to get the show on the road.My emotions are feeling really raw right now and it is hard to describe the incredible helplessness in which is smothering me. I feel like I am living two lives and it seems incredibly fragmented lately.I am not sleeping great and know I have got to chill out!!!I hear September seems to speed up referals and hopefully things will move fast.I am praying and seeking God but he seems so distant right now. My spirtual life seems like it is going through a winter season. Alot of things in me need to die before I think I can leave this season. To name a few pride,unforgiveness,grudges,and thinking I have all the answers.I could name alot more but...I won't.edit