 | Homestudy April 7, 2008 We are waiting for our social worker to call to set up a meeting in our home. This makes me nervous because my 4 year old calls everybody wienie! I don't know where this came from and it can't be a good thing.He is such a sweet child but he has his own mind.His pre-school teacher said he was saying potty words at school to make his friends laugh. We are cracking down but sometimes we want to crack up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!edit  Comments I am so excited to be a part of this wonderful time with the Ortis clan. What a gift Kati is going to be for all of us! I am praying for her to come and join us QUICKLY! |
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January 19, 2009
I talked to our agency today. The coordinator in Perm met with the M.O.E on Monday. They had referals to give. Lana(the Perm coordinator) is going Tuesday morning to get the referals.They will have to be translated in Moscow.The referal is usually a picture of the child and medicals. Perm is 11 hours ahead of us so she is probably on the way to get the referals at this moment!!!!Of course nothing is ever easy so we do not know if there is a little girl referal. People say you dont want to get the wrong child but my anxiousness is not even about that. I want to get our little girl but at the same time I am beginning to wonder if God really cares that i just feel confused. I have been so optomisitic most of this year(tomorrow is one year Exactly since we started this crazy journey) but I am feeling kind of cynical now. I guess the whole time I have been looking for a sign that God was in the middle of all of this and have gotten alot of disappointment so I give up trying to figure out what is going to happen next. Maybe God is trying to grow my faith?I have always been the glass is half full and now I am so tired. Scott feels good about this being it. I think if it is not I am going to Scream!!!! I hope I will have good news to post tomorrow!
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I talked to our agency today. The coordinator in Perm met with the M.O.E on Monday. They had referals to give. Lana(the Perm coordinator) is going Tuesday morning to get the referals.They will have to be translated in Moscow.The referal is usually a picture of the child and medicals. Perm is 11 hours ahead of us so she is probably on the way to get the referals at this moment!!!!Of course nothing is ever easy so we do not know if there is a little girl referal. People say you dont want to get the wrong child but my anxiousness is not even about that. I want to get our little girl but at the same time I am beginning to wonder if God really cares that i just feel confused. I have been so optomisitic most of this year(tomorrow is one year Exactly since we started this crazy journey) but I am feeling kind of cynical now. I guess the whole time I have been looking for a sign that God was in the middle of all of this and have gotten alot of disappointment so I give up trying to figure out what is going to happen next. Maybe God is trying to grow my faith?I have always been the glass is half full and now I am so tired. Scott feels good about this being it. I think if it is not I am going to Scream!!!! I hope I will have good news to post tomorrow!
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Russia Christmas
January 6, 2009
We talked to our agency. There will be a meeting January 15. The buzz was Russia stopped referals for 2008 because they had reached their number for the year. We are next on the list. Russia is celebrating Christmas today. Kati will be waking up in a couple of hours and hopefully Father Frost brought her a toy!!!
Thirteen days after Western Christmas, on January 7th, the Russian Orthodox Church celebrates its Christmas, in accordance with the old Julian calendar. It's a day of both solemn ritual and joyous celebration
After the 1917 Revolution, Christmas was banned throughout Russia, along with other religious celebrations. It wasn't until 75 years later, in 1992, that the holiday was openly observed. Today, it's once again celebrated in grand fashion, with the faithful participating in an all-night Mass in incense-filled Cathedrals amidst the company of the painted icons of Saints.
Christmas is one of the most joyous traditions for the celebration of Eve comes from the Russian tradition. On the Eve of Christmas, it is traditional for all family members to gather to share a special meal. The various foods and customs surrounding this meal differed in Holy Russia from village to village and from family to family, but certain aspects remained the same.
An old Russian tradition, whose roots are in the Orthodox faith, is the Christmas Eve fast and meal. The fast, typically, lasts until after the evening worship service or until the first star appears. The dinner that follows is very much a celebration, although, meat is not permitted. Kutya (kutia), a type of porridge, is the primary dish. It is very symbolic with its ingredients being various grains for hope and honey and poppy seed for happiness and peace.
Once the first star has appeared in the sky, the festivities begin. Although all of the food served is strictly Lenten, it is served in an unusually festive and anticipatory manner and style. The Russians call this meal: "The Holy Supper." The family gathers around the table to honor the coming Christ Child. A white table-cloth, symbolic of Christ's swaddling clothes, covers the Table. Hay is brought forth as a reminder of the poverty of the Cave where Jesus was born. A tall white candle is place in the center of the Table, symbolic of Christ "the Light of the World." A large round loaf of Lenten bread, "pagach," symbolic of Christ the Bread of Life, is placed next to the Candle.
The meal begins with the Lord's Prayer, led by the father of the family. A prayer of thanksgiving for all the blessings of the past year is said and then prayers for the good things in the coming year are offered. The head of the family greets those present with the traditional Christmas greeting: "Christ is Born!" The family members respond: "Glorify Him!" The Mother of the family blesses each person present with honey in the form of a cross on each forehead, saying: "In the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, may you have sweetness and many good things in life and in the new year." Following this, everyone partakes of the bread, dipping it first in honey and then in chopped garlic. Honey is symbolic of the sweetness of life, and garlic of the bitterness. The "Holy Supper" is then eaten (see below for details). After dinner, no dishes are washed and the Christmas presents are opened. Then the family goes to Church, coming home between 2 and 3 am. On the Feast of the Nativity, neighbors and family members visit each other, going from house to house , eating, drinking and singing Christmas Carols all the day long.
The "Holy Supper"
Christmas Eve dinner is meatless but festive. The most important ingredient is a special porridge called kutya. It is made of wheatberries or other grains which symbolize hope and immortality, and honey and poppy seeds which ensure happiness, success, and untroubled rest. A ceremony involving the blessing of the home is frequently observed. The kutya is eaten from a common dish to symbolize unity. Some families used to throw a spoonful of kutya up to the ceiling. According to tradition, if the kutya stuck, there would be a plentiful honey harvest.
Traditionally, the "Holy Supper" consists of 12 different foods, symbolic of the 12 Apostles. Although there was also some variation in the foods from place to place and village to village, the following is a good summary of what was typically served. It comes to us from Elizabeth Kontras, who celebrated the Feast of the Nativity in the traditional Russian way with her babishka (Grandmother) and zeddo (Grandfather) in Monessen, Pennsylvania until their passing in the 1970-1980's. The twelve foods are:
1) Mushroom soup with zaprashka; this is often replaced with Sauerkraut soup
2) Lenten bread ("pagach")
3) Grated garlic
4) Bowl of honey
5) Baked cod
6) Fresh Apricots, Oranges, Figs and Dates
7) Nuts
8) Kidney beans (slow cooked all day) seasoned with shredded potatoes, lots of garlic, salt and pepper to taste
9) Peas
10) Parsley Potatoes (boiled new potatoes with chopped parsley and margarine)
11) Bobal'ki (small biscuits combined with sauerkraut or poppyseed with honey)
12) Red Wine
It was once common practice, on Christmas Eve, for groups of people masquerading as manger animals to travel from house to house, having themselves a rousing good time, and singing songs known as kolyadki . Some kolyadki were pastoral carols to the baby Jesus, while others were homages to the ancient solar goddess Kolyada, who brings the lengthening days of sunlight through the winter. In return for their songs, the singers were offered food and coins, which they gladly accepted, moving on to the next home.
Ded Moroz and yolka
The origin of Santa Claus is in St. Nicholas. He was born in Asia Minor at at the Greco-Roman city of of Myra in the province of Lycia, at a time when the region was entirely Greek in origin. Due to the suppression of religion during the Soviet regime, St. Nicholas was replaced by Ded Moroz or Grandfather Frost, the Russian Spirit of Winter who brought gifts on New Year's. He is accompanied by Snyegurochka, the Snowmaiden, who helps distribute the gifts.
The Christmas tree (Yolka) is yet another tradition banned during the Soviet era.To keep the custom alive, people decorated New Year's trees, instead. Since ornaments were either very costly or unavailable, family trees were trimmed with homemade decorations and fruit. Yolka comes from the word which refers to a fir tree. The custom of decorating Christmas trees was introduced to Russia by Peter the Great, after he visited Europe during the 1700's.
Why January 7?
In ancient times, many, mostly unreliable methods had been used to calculate the dates according to either the lunar or solar cycles. By Roman times, the calendar had become three months out with the seasons, so in 46 BC, Julius Caesar commissioned the astronomer, Sosigenes to devise a more reliable method. This, we know as the Julian Calendar and was used widely for 1500 years. The month of his birth, Caesar had named Quintilis, but the Roman Senate later re-named it Julius (July) in his honour. In those days, February had 30 days every 4 years.
However, this calendar was still 11 minutes and 14 seconds longer than the solar year, so that by the year 1580, the calendar had accumulated 10 days off again. In 1582, therefore, Pope Gregory XIII corrected the difference between the sun and calendar by ordering 10 days dropped from October, the month with the least Roman Catholic Feast days. His calendar, we know as the Gregorian Calendar, which is used in almost all of the world today. Pope Gregory made further changes to keep the calendar in line, which on average is only 26.3 seconds longer than the solar year. The Gregorian Calendar is so accurate that it will take until the year 4316 to gain a whole day on the sun.
That year, 1582, October 5th became October 15th and was immediately adopted in most Roman Catholic nations of Europe. Various German states kept the Julian Calendar until 1700. Britain and the American Colonies didn't change until 1752, but Russia and Turkey did not adopt the Gregorian Calendar until the early 1900's.
So, January 7th by the Georgian Calendar would have been December 25th by the old Julian Calendar and is therefore why it is still Christmas Day for the Russian Orthodox Church. Many Russians will have celebrated along with the rest of us and will then celebrate again on the Orthodox date.
New Year Eve instead of Christmas
Few people in Russia remember, but when the communists took power in 1917 they banned the open expression of religion. While it was easy to pray at home, the Russian people were concerned about giving up their traditional Christmas celebration.
But where there is a will, there is a way!
They re-invented the New Year's holiday tradition to include a decorated tree, and introduced a character called "Grandfather Frost." Known as "Ded Moroz," Grandfather Frost looked very much like the western "Santa Claus" or "Pere Noel" - except he wore a blue suit.
Actually, Ded Moroz was a character that existed in the pagan culture, centuries earlier. For a time, Christmas was all but forgotten. In fact, it was generally celebrated only in small villages, where the citizenry was far from the prying eyes of the Party.
Today, Christmas is celebrated again, on January 7. But, to date, New Year's remains the bigger event.
We will teach Kati about her heritage and show her the love of jesus and next year she will be celebrating his birth with us!!!
January 6, 2009
We talked to our agency. There will be a meeting January 15. The buzz was Russia stopped referals for 2008 because they had reached their number for the year. We are next on the list. Russia is celebrating Christmas today. Kati will be waking up in a couple of hours and hopefully Father Frost brought her a toy!!!
Thirteen days after Western Christmas, on January 7th, the Russian Orthodox Church celebrates its Christmas, in accordance with the old Julian calendar. It's a day of both solemn ritual and joyous celebration
After the 1917 Revolution, Christmas was banned throughout Russia, along with other religious celebrations. It wasn't until 75 years later, in 1992, that the holiday was openly observed. Today, it's once again celebrated in grand fashion, with the faithful participating in an all-night Mass in incense-filled Cathedrals amidst the company of the painted icons of Saints.
Christmas is one of the most joyous traditions for the celebration of Eve comes from the Russian tradition. On the Eve of Christmas, it is traditional for all family members to gather to share a special meal. The various foods and customs surrounding this meal differed in Holy Russia from village to village and from family to family, but certain aspects remained the same.
An old Russian tradition, whose roots are in the Orthodox faith, is the Christmas Eve fast and meal. The fast, typically, lasts until after the evening worship service or until the first star appears. The dinner that follows is very much a celebration, although, meat is not permitted. Kutya (kutia), a type of porridge, is the primary dish. It is very symbolic with its ingredients being various grains for hope and honey and poppy seed for happiness and peace.
Once the first star has appeared in the sky, the festivities begin. Although all of the food served is strictly Lenten, it is served in an unusually festive and anticipatory manner and style. The Russians call this meal: "The Holy Supper." The family gathers around the table to honor the coming Christ Child. A white table-cloth, symbolic of Christ's swaddling clothes, covers the Table. Hay is brought forth as a reminder of the poverty of the Cave where Jesus was born. A tall white candle is place in the center of the Table, symbolic of Christ "the Light of the World." A large round loaf of Lenten bread, "pagach," symbolic of Christ the Bread of Life, is placed next to the Candle.
The meal begins with the Lord's Prayer, led by the father of the family. A prayer of thanksgiving for all the blessings of the past year is said and then prayers for the good things in the coming year are offered. The head of the family greets those present with the traditional Christmas greeting: "Christ is Born!" The family members respond: "Glorify Him!" The Mother of the family blesses each person present with honey in the form of a cross on each forehead, saying: "In the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, may you have sweetness and many good things in life and in the new year." Following this, everyone partakes of the bread, dipping it first in honey and then in chopped garlic. Honey is symbolic of the sweetness of life, and garlic of the bitterness. The "Holy Supper" is then eaten (see below for details). After dinner, no dishes are washed and the Christmas presents are opened. Then the family goes to Church, coming home between 2 and 3 am. On the Feast of the Nativity, neighbors and family members visit each other, going from house to house , eating, drinking and singing Christmas Carols all the day long.
The "Holy Supper"
Christmas Eve dinner is meatless but festive. The most important ingredient is a special porridge called kutya. It is made of wheatberries or other grains which symbolize hope and immortality, and honey and poppy seeds which ensure happiness, success, and untroubled rest. A ceremony involving the blessing of the home is frequently observed. The kutya is eaten from a common dish to symbolize unity. Some families used to throw a spoonful of kutya up to the ceiling. According to tradition, if the kutya stuck, there would be a plentiful honey harvest.
Traditionally, the "Holy Supper" consists of 12 different foods, symbolic of the 12 Apostles. Although there was also some variation in the foods from place to place and village to village, the following is a good summary of what was typically served. It comes to us from Elizabeth Kontras, who celebrated the Feast of the Nativity in the traditional Russian way with her babishka (Grandmother) and zeddo (Grandfather) in Monessen, Pennsylvania until their passing in the 1970-1980's. The twelve foods are:
1) Mushroom soup with zaprashka; this is often replaced with Sauerkraut soup
2) Lenten bread ("pagach")
3) Grated garlic
4) Bowl of honey
5) Baked cod
6) Fresh Apricots, Oranges, Figs and Dates
7) Nuts
8) Kidney beans (slow cooked all day) seasoned with shredded potatoes, lots of garlic, salt and pepper to taste
9) Peas
10) Parsley Potatoes (boiled new potatoes with chopped parsley and margarine)
11) Bobal'ki (small biscuits combined with sauerkraut or poppyseed with honey)
12) Red Wine
It was once common practice, on Christmas Eve, for groups of people masquerading as manger animals to travel from house to house, having themselves a rousing good time, and singing songs known as kolyadki . Some kolyadki were pastoral carols to the baby Jesus, while others were homages to the ancient solar goddess Kolyada, who brings the lengthening days of sunlight through the winter. In return for their songs, the singers were offered food and coins, which they gladly accepted, moving on to the next home.
Ded Moroz and yolka
The origin of Santa Claus is in St. Nicholas. He was born in Asia Minor at at the Greco-Roman city of of Myra in the province of Lycia, at a time when the region was entirely Greek in origin. Due to the suppression of religion during the Soviet regime, St. Nicholas was replaced by Ded Moroz or Grandfather Frost, the Russian Spirit of Winter who brought gifts on New Year's. He is accompanied by Snyegurochka, the Snowmaiden, who helps distribute the gifts.
The Christmas tree (Yolka) is yet another tradition banned during the Soviet era.To keep the custom alive, people decorated New Year's trees, instead. Since ornaments were either very costly or unavailable, family trees were trimmed with homemade decorations and fruit. Yolka comes from the word which refers to a fir tree. The custom of decorating Christmas trees was introduced to Russia by Peter the Great, after he visited Europe during the 1700's.
Why January 7?
In ancient times, many, mostly unreliable methods had been used to calculate the dates according to either the lunar or solar cycles. By Roman times, the calendar had become three months out with the seasons, so in 46 BC, Julius Caesar commissioned the astronomer, Sosigenes to devise a more reliable method. This, we know as the Julian Calendar and was used widely for 1500 years. The month of his birth, Caesar had named Quintilis, but the Roman Senate later re-named it Julius (July) in his honour. In those days, February had 30 days every 4 years.
However, this calendar was still 11 minutes and 14 seconds longer than the solar year, so that by the year 1580, the calendar had accumulated 10 days off again. In 1582, therefore, Pope Gregory XIII corrected the difference between the sun and calendar by ordering 10 days dropped from October, the month with the least Roman Catholic Feast days. His calendar, we know as the Gregorian Calendar, which is used in almost all of the world today. Pope Gregory made further changes to keep the calendar in line, which on average is only 26.3 seconds longer than the solar year. The Gregorian Calendar is so accurate that it will take until the year 4316 to gain a whole day on the sun.
That year, 1582, October 5th became October 15th and was immediately adopted in most Roman Catholic nations of Europe. Various German states kept the Julian Calendar until 1700. Britain and the American Colonies didn't change until 1752, but Russia and Turkey did not adopt the Gregorian Calendar until the early 1900's.
So, January 7th by the Georgian Calendar would have been December 25th by the old Julian Calendar and is therefore why it is still Christmas Day for the Russian Orthodox Church. Many Russians will have celebrated along with the rest of us and will then celebrate again on the Orthodox date.
New Year Eve instead of Christmas
Few people in Russia remember, but when the communists took power in 1917 they banned the open expression of religion. While it was easy to pray at home, the Russian people were concerned about giving up their traditional Christmas celebration.
But where there is a will, there is a way!
They re-invented the New Year's holiday tradition to include a decorated tree, and introduced a character called "Grandfather Frost." Known as "Ded Moroz," Grandfather Frost looked very much like the western "Santa Claus" or "Pere Noel" - except he wore a blue suit.
Actually, Ded Moroz was a character that existed in the pagan culture, centuries earlier. For a time, Christmas was all but forgotten. In fact, it was generally celebrated only in small villages, where the citizenry was far from the prying eyes of the Party.
Today, Christmas is celebrated again, on January 7. But, to date, New Year's remains the bigger event.
We will teach Kati about her heritage and show her the love of jesus and next year she will be celebrating his birth with us!!!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
December 31, 2008
I cant believe 2008 is almost over. I would have thought Kati would be home or we would at least have met her. We still have no news. We got a email from the agency the day after Christmas saying the meeting had been postponed.I think they are putting off the referal until the new year because they can only do a certain number of international adoptions.Last week I was really having a hard time with the wait but now Im good. 2009 is the year Kati will come home.Christmas was great and the kids had a blast. We got a trampoline and we have been having family jumpoffs.We wait anxiously for the call to come meet our little girl.edit
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We're anxiously waiting with you!!! I check this blog religiously!!! Love ya and can't wait to meet Miss Kati...We've had both girls this week (Erin still here) and it's sooooo much fun. Love,G
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I cant believe 2008 is almost over. I would have thought Kati would be home or we would at least have met her. We still have no news. We got a email from the agency the day after Christmas saying the meeting had been postponed.I think they are putting off the referal until the new year because they can only do a certain number of international adoptions.Last week I was really having a hard time with the wait but now Im good. 2009 is the year Kati will come home.Christmas was great and the kids had a blast. We got a trampoline and we have been having family jumpoffs.We wait anxiously for the call to come meet our little girl.edit
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We're anxiously waiting with you!!! I check this blog religiously!!! Love ya and can't wait to meet Miss Kati...We've had both girls this week (Erin still here) and it's sooooo much fun. Love,G
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We are ready for christmas. We had a blast decorating our home. The boys love looking at their ornaments that they have gotten through the years. We even have talking ones that they record their voice each year with their picture.Holly you should start this with Hayes!!!This year will be our nephews first christmas!!! I know my sister in law has to be so excited.Christmas took on a whole new meaning when I had children.Our plans this year are to spend christmas at home and the day after drive to Louisiana to see the Louisiana gang. I am excited to see everyone and know it is going to be a special time.It will probably be the last time to go before Kati comes home because hopefully we will be heading to Russia mid January.I am excited I will be seeing my mother in law , sisters and brother in laws and 2 nephews and our one little niece that turned 16 this year. Kati will be fortunate to have a family that all grandparents aunts and uncles are excited to welcome her in the family as if she was born naturally. Having met alot of people in the process that do not have families that are so supportive I realize I am blessed and so is Kati.That being said thank you so much to my family here in Birmingham ,Lafayette,Dallas(soon to be B.R)and Pine Prarie, Nashville,and Atlanta I love all of you. I know God took all of you in account too when he picked us out for kati and even placed all of us in our families for a purpose before the creation of the world.I love each and every one of you.
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December 5, 2008
We still have not heard anything and I will be honest and say today was a rough day. I am so discouraged and tired , This process is emotionally exhausting and there is always the waiting that kills you. We hear no news and to keep on keeping on can at times make me just cry. Tonight we had a christmas party for our local adoption agency. I almost did not go because I just wanted to put the adoption out of my mind. Scott and I sat in the car outside of the party and I cried and told him we needed to stop the adoption. I got scared that Kati was not going to happen. Scott was so patient as I cried and told me we ARE going to find Kati and God always finishes what he starts. With swollen eyes and a fake smile we went in to the party. I saw all the employees of Villa Hope that I have truly grown to love and they were so nice. I could only be fake for 10 seconds and I cried on their shoulders.At the end of the night we met a couple that are expecting a referal anyday too. We ended up going out to eat with them. The couple then told us they did not want to go to the party tonight either but God had told them they had a divine appointment. They did not know what it was to the very end of the night we met. They told us to not give up.I know God set this up to encourage me. I will keep on keeping on. I know God will bring us Kati when she is ready and we are ready.I don't know why I still have a hard time trusting this.
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We still have not heard anything and I will be honest and say today was a rough day. I am so discouraged and tired , This process is emotionally exhausting and there is always the waiting that kills you. We hear no news and to keep on keeping on can at times make me just cry. Tonight we had a christmas party for our local adoption agency. I almost did not go because I just wanted to put the adoption out of my mind. Scott and I sat in the car outside of the party and I cried and told him we needed to stop the adoption. I got scared that Kati was not going to happen. Scott was so patient as I cried and told me we ARE going to find Kati and God always finishes what he starts. With swollen eyes and a fake smile we went in to the party. I saw all the employees of Villa Hope that I have truly grown to love and they were so nice. I could only be fake for 10 seconds and I cried on their shoulders.At the end of the night we met a couple that are expecting a referal anyday too. We ended up going out to eat with them. The couple then told us they did not want to go to the party tonight either but God had told them they had a divine appointment. They did not know what it was to the very end of the night we met. They told us to not give up.I know God set this up to encourage me. I will keep on keeping on. I know God will bring us Kati when she is ready and we are ready.I don't know why I still have a hard time trusting this.
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December 1, 2008
I still do not know when we travel but I do know there is a little girl coming off the databank in December!!!!I have to say I really do not know how I am feeling except willing to go to the ends of the earth to get our child. I am ready to go back to Russia and meet this child I know nothing about her but trust God is in the middle of it all.We are all decorated for Christmas and all of my shopping is done so I am ready for whatever.I am just trying to not figure out everything and let God unfold his plan. I know he will bring it all to completition!!!
I still do not know when we travel but I do know there is a little girl coming off the databank in December!!!!I have to say I really do not know how I am feeling except willing to go to the ends of the earth to get our child. I am ready to go back to Russia and meet this child I know nothing about her but trust God is in the middle of it all.We are all decorated for Christmas and all of my shopping is done so I am ready for whatever.I am just trying to not figure out everything and let God unfold his plan. I know he will bring it all to completition!!!
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