December 5 2008

mber 5, 2008
We still have not heard anything and I will be honest and say today was a rough day. I am so discouraged and tired , This process is emotionally exhausting and there is always the waiting that kills you. We hear no news and to keep on keeping on can at times make me just cry. Tonight we had a christmas party for our local adoption agency. I almost did not go because I just wanted to put the adoption out of my mind. Scott and I sat in the car outside of the party and I cried and told him we needed to stop the adoption. I got scared that Kati was not going to happen. Scott was so patient as I cried and told me we ARE going to find Kati and God always finishes what he starts. With swollen eyes and a fake smile we went in to the party. I saw all the employees of Villa Hope that I have truly grown to love and they were so nice. I could only be fake for 10 seconds and I cried on their shoulders.At the end of the night we met a couple that are expecting a referal anyday too. We ended up going out to eat with them. The couple then told us they did not want to go to the party tonight either but God had told them they had a divine appointment. They did not know what it was to the very end of the night we met. They told us to not give up.I know God set this up to encourage me. I will keep on keeping on. I know God will bring us Kati when she is ready and we are ready.I don't know why I still have a hard time trusting this. edit