December 5 2008

mber 5, 2008
We still have not heard anything and I will be honest and say today was a rough day. I am so discouraged and tired , This process is emotionally exhausting and there is always the waiting that kills you. We hear no news and to keep on keeping on can at times make me just cry. Tonight we had a christmas party for our local adoption agency. I almost did not go because I just wanted to put the adoption out of my mind. Scott and I sat in the car outside of the party and I cried and told him we needed to stop the adoption. I got scared that Kati was not going to happen. Scott was so patient as I cried and told me we ARE going to find Kati and God always finishes what he starts. With swollen eyes and a fake smile we went in to the party. I saw all the employees of Villa Hope that I have truly grown to love and they were so nice. I could only be fake for 10 seconds and I cried on their shoulders.At the end of the night we met a couple that are expecting a referal anyday too. We ended up going out to eat with them. The couple then told us they did not want to go to the party tonight either but God had told them they had a divine appointment. They did not know what it was to the very end of the night we met. They told us to not give up.I know God set this up to encourage me. I will keep on keeping on. I know God will bring us Kati when she is ready and we are ready.I don't know why I still have a hard time trusting this. edit

December 6, 2008
We are ready for christmas. We had a blast decorating our home. The boys love looking at their ornaments that they have gotten through the years. We even have talking ones that they record their voice each year with their picture.Holly you should start this with Hayes!!!This year will be our nephews first christmas!!! I know my sister in law has to be so excited.Christmas took on a whole new meaning when I had children.Our plans this year are to spend christmas at home and the day after drive to Louisiana to see the Louisiana gang. I am excited to see everyone and know it is going to be a special time.It will probably be the last time to go before Kati comes home because hopefully we will be heading to Russia mid January.I am excited I will be seeing my mother in law , sisters and brother in laws and 2 nephews and our one little niece that turned 16 this year. Kati will be fortunate to have a family that all grandparents aunts and uncles are excited to welcome her in the family as if she was born naturally. Having met alot of people in the process that do not have families that are so supportive I realize I am blessed and so is Kati.That being said thank you so much to my family here in Birmingham ,Lafayette,Dallas(soon to be B.R)and Pine Prarie, Nashville,and Atlanta I love all of you. I know God took all of you in account too when he picked us out for kati and even placed all of us in our families for a purpose before the creation of the world.I love each and every one of you.